Quarter-life Crisis

“The quarter-life crisis is a period of life ranging from twenties to thirties, in which a person begins to feel doubtful about their own lives, brought on by the stress of becoming an adult.”

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I had a hard time sleeping last night thinking about things in my life. I’m a graduate of a Bachelor’s Degree in International Hospitality Management Course at the age of 19. Right before the graduation day, I started working on a Food and Beverage Industry already. After less than a year, I resigned. I felt like that was not the industry I belong.

After that, I entered the world of Sales. I tried selling high end house and lot. It was harder than expected. I got to meet people from all classes of the society, from high class politicians, company owners, actors, and those from the middle and low class. It just sounds fancy, but in reality I really had a HARD TIME and again I thought that it was not the industry where I belong.

I tried to stay, until I got pregnant, leave my work and got married at the age of 21. Since then, I stayed at home. My husband earns more than enough for our needs. We got to buy what we need and what we want.

But, thinking about it I feel like something is missing from me. Self-fulfillment, I guess. I was never successful career wise. What if one day or years from now I was asked what I have fulfilled for my self, I will never come up with an answer. Now that I am 25 years old and aside from being a stay-at-home-mom I am nothing and it hurts my pride.

I tried to explore my capabilities and get a life at least. I tried selling my baked goods online. But that’s just occasionally and I find it so hard especially when catering bulk orders since I work as a one-woman team from buying the ingredients, packaging, designing and printing labels, baking, cleaning up for the used utensils and bake wares, selling and delivering. (though my husband helps by selling too to his office mates.)

I tried to sell fashion wallets and branded bags. But that did not last for so long, of course not everyone affords to buy branded bags and not all the time they will buy .

I also tried to open a thrift store online since it was on hype that time. But eventually, got so stressed out with the suppliers I had so I had to stopped.

On the other side, I can proudly say that I am doing a great job being a mom and wife but deep down inside me feels empty. Working from home is ideal, but I always ask my self “how?” I know that there are companies offering a work-from-home setup, but I don’t really know how to start.

Where do I really belong? What is really in-store for me? Those were the questions I asked Jesus last night. I asked Him to help me get what he is trying to tell me and lead me the way. I know that my purpose in life is not limited with what I have now. While everyone is striving up high with their careers, I am here, still here, still wondering while the clock is ticking…

I am hoping years from now, I will be able to look back to these blog and tell my self that “Hey, finally you achieved something really great!”.

Thanks for reading! ❤️

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